Okay, its holiday now, two more weeks of holiday left only... Worked at clarins. Its more like modeling than working. Quite fun, bcus I keep eating snakes. Haha.
Work was fine, but only three days, luckily. Tuesday to Thursday i'll be at chalet. My class organized. Hmm.. Not even looking forward. :-/
Alright, I'm gna do some ranting now but not gna rant much....
Idk how to put my feelings into words.
He keep promising me that he will not hurt me, will not leave me and things like this.. But idk how to trust him. The previous guy told me that too, but he left me in the end. Idw to be that naive and hurt myself anymore. I fell in and out of love for like twice and am freaking tired of getting into a relationship currently. Idk how to say, I mean its harder for me to fall in love again. The feeling is different.. Different from how it is supposed or the previous guy or maybe how it used to be? I mean it should be a pleasant thing to fall in love with the guy who loves you back too but somehow, I dont feel secured and I am not mentally prepared to get hurt again.. I don't know how to love someone again. I don't know how to fall in love again.. I really dont know.. Kk. That's all for today. Goodbyeeeee! :]
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